Graduating…

Twirling

Swirling

My life seems to be whirling

So much change

My heart is churning

Looking for something safe

Secure

Steady

I don’t know if I’m ready

For another new season of unknown

I try to go with the flow

But my heart knows

The pain of change

Things won’t look the same

Subtle

Strange

I walk through the pain 

Letting go 

The feeling of something slipping away

My heart frantically tries to pull it all back

Innocence

Childhood

Memories now flooding in

Little faces

Happy hugs

Loud giggles

Growing up

Pulling away

Finding themselves 

Change

Releasing futures into the unknown

How can they already be grown?

Wasn’t it just yesterday we giggled and played?

“I did the best I can”

I try to convince my mothering heart

Amidst all the unspoken words

All the things I felt I left undone 

Was I fully present?

Did I truly do my best?

Do they know how much I love them?

How do I stop time from marching forward?

Can’t I stay in this moment a little longer?

God! Help me be stronger!

Remind me that You have a plan

Remind me they are safe in Your hands

Help me as I step back 

I watch them begin to fly 

I want to run and help

But I know they have to do it themselves 

Tears of pain—what was is gone

Mixed with tears of joy—for who they’ve become 

My heart beating loud

A mother’s heart—so proud

 

“I’m not stepping down”

I remind my heart

I’m stepping aside

Not walking out front 

But stepping alongside 

As a friend

A guide 

Through life’s crazy ride

I’m here

Always

Your biggest fan

Watching

Praying

Cheering 

“I know you can!”

You’re never alone

(And neither am I)

I’ll always carry you in my heart

As God carries us both in His ❤️

My firstborn graduated! ❤️